Still missing him

Assalamualaikum....


Today i ditch class for like two hours.Haha i think i wanna laugh at my self. Where did i get those courage. Well , when u got others with you. U can just share all your worrieness. How do we get back? we use the back way. I can just imagine it as a shallow deep black and real dark alley. Yeah when u try to contain all your fear and nervess. All i can do is just follow the leader.


I think of barging in that cave of royal prince. But who am I? Haha, just to have an encounter can be a good luck for me. How he walks. Yeah i can just kick his leg. But for what?

You know. I still love listen to people's great adventure. How wonderful if i can join them. I wanna be recorder if i can. Things that always listen and keep all people's story.I wanna be a great listener. So that i can make people feel more confident than they are NOW.



I GOT GOT HIS PICTURE, HANGING IN THE LOCKER,STILL CANT REACH THE HELL OUT OF HIM.NANANANANANA~


How to be soberrrr..I always got the feeling. So sleepy when comes to study.Ughh

Apa yang aku fikir sekarang

Assalamualaikum..


Tadi ada roll call. warden johari nak tukar kerja. Nanti ada orang baru yang akan ambil alih tugas warden. Hope he will not as strict as a law.



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I see him in yellow. Nice to see how he smile. Far away i will keep thinking how stupid my heart is.Shhhhhuuu~ Dont ever let them fool you.


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I can see clearly now..How white the maggot on black rubbish bag. Dont even try to lie to me pleasee. I hate lier.

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U amuse me when u still dont know my fear. I hate that tiny little creature. So please understand my problem like i understand your. While u screaming letting out all your fear. Yeah maybe i laugh some of the time. Maybe i m being mean when i didnt help u get it of that animal ..insect..whatever~

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I think i might like u. But i know i wont let my heart crush again and again and again..

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UH oh no. Im done with u. I never dream about being if u anymoreeeeeeeeeeee..So please go away..Be a ghoul what any mummies..

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Ada ramai intake baru. Dalam 26.Rasanya lah. Ada muka bengis macam nak telan orang. Oi senyumlah sikit.. Yang penting sorang intake perempuan ni ada adab. Macam intake dulu tu. Sombong macam ulat dalam batu. Aku mampu geleng kepala je. Nak senyum takut senyum sorang sorang..


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Aku rasa aku dah makin kurang ajar dengan orang. Aku macam bukan aku. Aku cuba untuk jadi baik semula. Tapi tak semudah tu.

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Mak aku cakap. Jangan fikir pasal perasaan kau dekat budak lelaki. Baik fikir pasal macam mana nak lulus. Otak pun kurang runsing..Okay saya cuba mak! Gambatte ..




Yang Benar lagi tulusly,
Miss Chips

Little talk with life

Assalamualaikum..

You know...i prefer to be an innocent girl back when i was high school for many reason.. Less problem,pretty much one of the reason. As i grow up.. I can see that ive changed a lot. I met different people. I start to know how to like a boy..Well more than a friend. Even though,its not that all fairy tale.

If i could wish something from a good magic. I would like to be that innocent girl again. I dont want to know bad thing..Like how to kill people's feeling.How to hate a person.And much much more.. Looking back through my old album, it made me realize that how fun i am back there. And ive ruin it.. By putting much effort in order to make people love me.. Ironically,i dont get what i want.. while my young self gets all of it.. See ..the secret is, you dont blame people about it. U just have to ignore all the negativity and keep going with your life..I just hope that even if i fall in the future..I will not back off from my life..

I will keep going...

Accept my apology will ya

Assalamualaikum...


"Hatred comes with nothing good. Thats what i believe. Well, sometimes"


Aku just nak benda ni jadi peringatan pada diri aku sendiri. Lepas ni kalau rasa sakit hati lagi. Banyak-banyakkan istifar. Jangan pendam marah tu lama-lama. It will kill u slowly inside.

           Ada lah dua tiga hari lepas beberapa makhluk ni cari pasal dengan aku. Biasanya manusia ni suka hidup yang tenang. Tenteram gitu kan. Tapi ada juga speasis yang tak suka tengok orang lain happy. Kerja diorang sehari-hari cari idea untuk menyakitkan hari manusia lain. Kau ingat semua orang reti ke nak layan gurauan kau yang melampau. Kalau sekali sekala tak pa lagi. Tapi kalau dah banyak sangat, beruk yang pergi kelas terapi pun boleh bertukar jadi gorila.. Aku nak pesan sikit lah. Jaga sikit perkataan yang keluar dari mulut korang. Kalau rasa korang tak boleh gembirakan orang. Berhentilah bercakap sesuatu yang boleh mengubah mood positif orang lain. Kalau tak boleh juga..Baik kau jadi kelawar oku..Langgar mulut kau dengan dinding. Biar bersepai lepas tu kau nak cakap apa pun kau cakap la. Sebab nanti apa yang orang sekeliling kau dengar cuma bunyi hantu takut kena bakar.. 'Gorogorogorogoroooooo.......!' Lebih kuranglah.


Aku juga nak minta maaf dengan dua tiga makhluk di atas.. Aku tahu walaupun kita rasa orang lain yang salah, in some point sebenarnya kita pun ada salah juga.. Aku minta maaf sebab benci korang dua tiga hari lepas.. Aku minta maaf sebab berdoa korang ditimpa sesuatu yang tidak baik. Aku minta maaf sebab aku tak reti nak sporting or layan gurauan korang tu. Aku minta maaf sebab buat korang rasa bersalah..Kalau ada lah..Kalau korang tak rasa apa-apa, aku pun.. Tak rugi sesen .. I will slowly terima korang balik..Think rasionally yang korang memang sejak dalam perut lagi dah memang praktis jadi macam tu. Kadang-kadang aku rasa awkward bila nak layan korang macam korang tak buat salah dengan aku. But ,i know..It will come around, eventually. To whom,yang dah pernah sakitkan hati aku..Aku minta maaf sebab dah layan korang macam musuh.


Usually, aku akan bagi silent treatment sebab aku dah penat bercakap.. Tapi jangan risau,insya Allah aku punya marah tu tak lama.. Depends dengan tahap kerasionalan otak aku waktu tu.Kalau time tu aku suka buat baik..Selalu ingat amar makruf nah mungkar. Sekejap je aku dah cool down. Kalau time tu syaitan hasut aku banyak-banyak..Prepare je lah aku tak layan kau sampai bila-bila yang aku suka..


Okay tutup cerita tu...


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Malam ni nak pergi Tajima...
Sweet Yaaaaaaw! I loves Tajima like I loves my tummy.... Im gonna feed u baby and u will neva cry for food anymore..Er,maybe just for tonight.


Aku nampak crush junior aku lagi ...Hahahahaha  macam gelak syaitan je kau ni... Apasal aku suka lelaki berkaca mata ni. Oh Tidakkkkkk!

Boy u look damn handsome~ Nah, im not crazy over u..Yet..
Try to forget my old crush..U Please get out of my mind.. I know I will never be the flower in your garden.. What the hell, Stop the nonsense...


Pen off now..

Gonna miss that time..

sincerely...
HeartInToPieces

My Mistake

Assalamualaikum..

"How easy people fall for that"


I tricked them. Thats the reason why everything is not in proper manner.. I thought by lying could solve and lure them.. Well i was wrong.. As time past by, i would just hope they get my message.. I dont want to leave them like a bandit. As I swear to act as a Robinhood..It doesnt produce great outcome...

Lesson learn.. Matlamat tidak menghalalkan cara.. Be a robinhood kind of person would just blow people away from you. As i still crawl to learn how to walk..They also cheated me..Friends what people call this kind of creature..They usually dont last forever..Dont get your heart attach to much..And you shall not fall.. Unless you are willing to pull out the dagger out of your lung as they take your breath away..



+Maybe im not that kind of poem person..This bad writing comes from my soul...soul usually doesnt lie much..well it will if it must..

Anocement

Assalamualaikum..




"Broken secrets may be spread all the shy. Family should be the greatest."


Kakak baru habis video call dengan mak dan abah. connection tak berapa nak elok..Hurm gambar tak bergerak pun start dari awal sampailah akhir..Stress jugaklah.. Phone tu patut kena ganti..Waaaaaaa Aku nak phone baru!! Abah kata ada ni ha phone baru. Boleh tengok tv lagi..I dont care lah..as long as boleh letak game bebanyak..Kakak kasi thumbs up.. Mak kata dah sebulan kakak tak balik.. Rindu le tue..Hahaha baru sebulan kot..rileks aaaa~  Sibuk membebel suruh pergi rumah maksu..Dah la bagitahu last-last..Malah ahh.. Dengar ceramah pasal bagi salam tu biar betul-betul..salah sebut bermaksud MATI.. ASA tu MATI kawan-kawan tahu tak? Kena sebut ASSA.... Baru la betul.. in other word, Asalamualaikum tu salah..tapi assalamualikum tu baru lah betul.. Orang mengantuk memang lah bagi salam ikut sedap mulut je....

THIS IS RYAN GUZMAN

sebab dia kacak kan..Kite belanja awak semua dengan gambar ni

Haaa ni sekarang kite nak membebel pasal batch mates kite..Adalah sorang ni..dia pergi screenshot blog kite..Seronoknyaaa lepas tu foward dekat group.. Malu lahhh.. Itu semua zaman hati tengah gila suka kan mangkuk ayun sorang ni..Hish sekarang pun kekadang suka lagi tapi tak de la banyaaaak sangat.. Sebab kite rasa hati kite dah numb..Dia dah penat kut suka orang .. Soo, Kalau rasa nak tengok lagi kite jadi jiwang..Silalah mendoakan kite dan dia..Hihihihi okay biar aku tampar pipi sendiri.. Gatal tak habis habis..Ingat belajar tak habes lagi oiii!



Next important stuff..

Today kite ikut usrah kak syu..Kitorang baru start..Kelakar juga bila teringat masa mula-mula tadi..Dah lelama sikit tu rasa okay..Tapi kite ada juga berangan time kak syu berceloteh..mengantuk sikit..Hihihi


MY Wishes..
1. Semua yang baik akan menjadi masa hadapan untuk semua orang yang aku kenal..


The End..

Awak jangan nakal-nakal tau..Kalau stalker pun biar berpada-pada..Aku sekeh kang!

Wanted

Assalamualaikum..

"How to think again about him when your mind refuse to create the image"


Just puisi tak seberapa..

Tajuk: Secret Admire

Berapa lama aku suka kau,
Berapa lama aku tahu kau tak pernah notice aku,
Berapa lama aku jumpa crush baru,
Berapa lama aku masih juga suka kau, 
Adakalanya aku rasa aku patut benci kau, 
Adakalanya kau pasti beri senyuman saat aku membenci,
Bila kau menjadi mimpi ngeri,
Hati aku sakit bagai ditikam belati,
Sebagai peminat rahsia,
Tiada ruang untuk aku berharap,
Selagi hati ini masih mengangguk,
Kau kan sentiasa di situ,
Andai kau menyedari,
Terima kasih cuma satu kata-kataku..


This is my heart talking for me....
I like u..Just like that..No reason..Maybe


Music : HUNTER Hayes- Wanted